Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Freezin for....no reason

Looks like weekends might not get many updates, since I'm usually fairly busy doing stuff. I didn't update yesterday because I was busy trying to make use of my time with studying. I'm still behind so I'm just taking a quick break to write this up.
I can't wait till I'm caught up and can go back to all my projects and activities I had planned. There's tons of things I want to do with all my free time but homework has been taking priority. 


Husky came to see me this weekend. We tried to spend most of it studying but I unfortunately got caught up in a sewing project that was due to get done, for some of it. One break, however, was Saturday when I once again took part in the Polar Bear Plunge! Yes it was that time of year once again. I missed it last year with all the life happenings that were getting in the way so I was glad to do it again this year. Husky wasn't all that enthused though...
Don't get me wrong though. He was most supportive with helping me by keeping a hold on my warm, dry clothes and also getting video evidence.
I did indeed plunge with my crutches. I didn't really have much of a choice, though I was able to have one of the firemen hold them for me at the water's edge so I didn't have to actually jump in with them. I was also able to take off the boot beforehand. Everyone was pretty impressed/shocked, which made me giggle when the announcer looked at me and said,
He also mentioned I should get an award for "Hardest-core Plunger".  Lol.
Of course this all still doesn't really encompass what it's like to actually plunge. I mean, everyone tells you "It's so fucking cold, but so much fun!" All that's true and everything, but it's hard to describe what exactly goes on once you're in the water. You would think every part of your body would be prepared, but that's not really the case. Even though Brain sits there and says "ok I'm ready" and is prepped to command the other parts of the body, it really isn't and it's not until you jump in that you find this out. So I naturally drew a picture. :)

My legs were actually really happy, since I ice them every day (or should) at the doctor's instructions. This is probably not true for everyone else, but the other body organs I think are pretty similar. 

The rest of the weekend, as I said, was nice and quiet. Even though I'm still fairly stressed out from my every growing work load I'm not ticcing as much now, thanks to Husky. He has some pretty effective methods for helping me calm down. :)
I've started employing that as a form of imagery, to go in conjunction with my breathing exercises, whenever I need to calm my self down from tics. So far it's working really well. 

Unfortunately, the only problem with this weekend is I had a left over box of sweet things that had been given to me through work. They consisted of danishes, turnovers, cinnamon rolls, and muffins.......all things that are sadly my biggest food weakness, next to cheese obviously.
Of course I caved. I'm sure one terrible day isn't going to completely ruin my healthy eating habits. Gotta splurge sometimes.
God they were so good. Problem is, I'll be getting more this Friday......and my roommates think I'm starving myself, for some odd reason.... Well, I probably was when I originally started dieting to help lose all my weight. Once I started really getting into shape and becoming more active, however, I had to bring up the amount I ate anyways. Currently I'm following what my doctor has set for me, but that still doesn't stop my roommates from teasing me about when I wasn't.

Friday, March 1, 2013

Stressful days

I'm behind in school work :(  I need to catch up but it's never-ending. I wish time would stop for like, a week, or maybe if there were 30hrs in a day....but then I might use that time for projects.
Schoolwork isn't the only culprit. I'm getting increasingly annoyed with having to use the crutches and boot in the crappy winter. I, of course, miss running. I think maybe I've got cabin fever. There's not enough time in the day to do everything else I want to do. And did I mention school is kicking my ass?

Problem with getting stressed is it increases my tics. Normally I bare with it but now that I have a lot more muscle in my arms they're starting to actually hurt. One in particular is a large arm movement where my right arm jerks up and then back down against my body. When I was out of shape and not toned I could deal with it, but now it's super frequent so it's getting annoying. I drew a picture to kind of show how it looks...not the best.

My tics come and go, and some are more frequent at times than others. Currently it's the arm one and another one that involves my wrist jerking in ways it probably shouldn't. Luckily my wrist isn't as developed like my biceps so I can handle it.
The problem with all of this is doing tics more aggravates me....which kind of, sort of makes me tic more.... Lol. So it's this nasty "feeding off itself" domino effect. I'm glad I see Husky today. He likes to hug me tightly so my arms can't move and hit me, and then I calm down. :)

So yeah. Lots of stress. I'm hoping to work through it soon. Thank god spring break is only a month away. Then I'll have a whooooole week with Husky in Las Vegas, rock climbing in Red Rocks. :D!

Oh, also, I found out my female cat Sachi is a bit of a creeper....

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Battle against Mother Nature

As promised here's a pic of my new fashion statement.
I accidentally slept in this morning. :(  Normally I get up at 6am every weekday so I can get to school and be guaranteed a free student parking spot. The extra time also enables me to get my workouts in and some homework. Thursdays are different though. I have my cleaning job with one of my clients today and somehow......somehow Brain knows that I don't have to be anywhere at 6am. So for the past 3 weeks or so I've gotten up at 6am except on Thursday, which is slightly annoying because I really would like that extra time for study.

In slightly better news, the snow storm did finally stop but it left a crap ton of snow behind. I suppose a bunch of snow is better to deal with than everything else. For a while it was getting fairly difficult just to go to and from campus.

I've resorted to putting a trash bag over my boot so that it doesn't get wet and damaged. I look kind of silly hobbling around with a trash bag over my leg.
I didn't have to be out long yesterday though. My other client for my cleaning job was yesterday so I was indoors most of the time. I got to polish silver spoons. It made my OCPD veeeeeery happy. :)

Not much else to report. Will probably take a bit to get used to little posts more often. I'm looking forward to the weekend since Husky comes here this time. We'll probably spend it working though. He has his thesis to finish up and I have homework to catch up on....sigh...

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Make the snow stooooop!

Things have gotten a bit crazy. Sorry for the lack of posts. I've redone my schedule, in light of recent events so I'm going to try something different. Posting every day! Well, every weekday. I think trying to remember posting one larger post once a week plays into my ADHD too much and I get distracted by other things. I'll likely remember more if it's smaller posts throughout the week. This post will be a bit longer though, to catch everyone up on life's happenings.
As for what's been going on, I've been dealing with school and physical health, which unfortunately take priority when they go wrong. Let's start with physical health....

First the good news:
Now the bad news.....that image is 3 weeks old. The below image is what happened half a week after I achieved that:


So long story short, my shin splints got much worse. I eventually had to cut back on running until I finally caved and went to my doctor. She put me on crutches for my left leg, which was the worse of the two, and referred me to the campus orthopedic. A week later I saw him and after looking me over said I might have the beginnings of a stress fracture and that we will treat them as serious shin splints for the time being. He then referred me to the campus Sports Med physical therapist, and instructed me to do everything he said. Soooo another week later I see him (last Friday), and after being evaluated he insisted on taking a closer look at my leg and we found that I actually have 2 stress fractures in my left medial tibia. We determined the cause was I increased my training in too short a time period without realizing it. Hey, I don't have a trainer so I didn't know. :(  Also, I tend to push a bit harder depending on the music choice that's playing. Dragonforce is a favorite.
Soooo he fitted me with a boot to befriend my crutches (I'll have pics of that tomorrow), and now I hobble around on those. I'll have to obviously continue physical therapy. I was told to not be surprised if this takes up to 3months to get me back to running just 5mi. So...half of what I was doing. ...sigh. He said if I do everything right, don't cheat, and heal properly, my marathon won't be out of the equation and I might heal quicker.

Speaking of Dragonforce, I don't think Husky likes me listening to them while driving... I swear I'm a safe driver! They're just a really good band to listen to.... Lol.
Anyways, needless to say, the no running has hit me pretty hard. Not only do I really enjoy running but it has a really big significance for me as well. I was never a runner before. My lungs couldn't take the endurance, and so I favored sprinting or sport positions that only required short bursts of speed (defense in soccer, outfield in softball...etc). I could only accomplish becoming a runner because I worked so hard on my endurance and strength through the Insanity Cardio program...but I was only able to accomplish that because I was so fed up with where I was in my life after the divorce (and my brother gave me good motivation to do it too). Regardless of how long the distance, every time I complete a run I feel this overwhelming feeling of "I did this. I can really do anything." For me, running is almost a physical manifestation of the feelings that encompass everything around who I was before and how hard I worked to become the person I am now.
No other sport does that for me like running. So for the first week or so, of no running, I was pretty depressed and irritable. Husky and I had our first argument about it. I'd been dreading that "first argument" mainly because of past experiences. Usually there are only 2 reasons why you have an argument in a relationship: either there is no communication about something or one of you is being a complete idiot.
I wish I could say it was the former. I can handle those in spades. I also wish I could say it wasn't me being the idiot. Both of those would be lies though. Lol. He really was being concerned for me and I should have listened when he said I'd run myself into crutches if I didn't slow down and rest. Of course he knew I knew all this and was just being stubborn, so he wasn't really mad at all. In fact he just acted adorable and then I had no more reasons to be mad either. :)

I <3 him. How could you be mad after that?  :)

Anyways. That covers physical health. As for school, well...I'm behind in work. The crutches, while an amazing arm workout, wear me out every day because I am essentially lifting 140lbs (180lbs with my backpack) every second or so, while I walk. So I was exhausted every day for a while until I got used to it and adjusted my sleep times. Unfortunately I fell asleep in a few classes...
And I also just super ADHD distracted, especially this weekend for some reason. So rather than continue farther down the wrong road I've tried turning around and set up weekly meetings with my professor to get extra 1 on 1 time to go over the week's materials. Hopefully I can catch back up. I also revised my schedule to fit in more homework time, without compromising too much time for myself, time with Husky/friends, or time for fun things like this. :)

Other minor things that happened. Husky fixed my piano! YAY! So now I can start practicing again! I was going to sell it but once it was fixed I changed my mind. :P
I also rearranged my room to be more awesome. I do this from time to time. Make me feel happy and it's fun. I even made a ton of paper snowflakes and taped them from my ceiling. It's awesome.

I met a guy who's an Ultra Marathoner. He runs 100mi runs....through mountains and other shit. o_o  I was really impressed. Also, I wondered if there was something wrong with me when my only thoughts were "Awesome! I want to do that!"

Work has been great. I made my special trail mix for them and it was devoured....well all but about 1cup. And then someone ate all the M&M's and left the rest. Lol!

I found the culprit and we had a laugh. :)


I think the only last bit of news has to do with the title...


MAKE THE SNOW STOP PLEEEEAAAASE!!
My god it just keeps coming! Do you have any idea how hard it is to walk in a boot and crutches through blizzard conditions?!? Just when you think it's finally done for the winter, Mother Nature is like, "Herpderp! Lol!"