Haven't forgotten

No I actually didn't forget to post this time. As my luck would have it Hubby got the flu on Thursday and by Friday night I had it. His Superman immune system kicked it by Saturday night but my shitty immune system decided to be lazy again.

Actually, it's not that my immune system sucks, it's just not very strong at fighting things off quickly and instead overcompensates by allowing me to get really high fevers.
Luckily today is the first day I woke up without a fever right away, but my body is totally exhausted. It feels like a chore just to sit up in bed, which is really annoying because I managed to get a small break in my fever yesterday afternoon and was able to move around the apartment a bit.
I also woke up this morning to Hubby cleaning up the apartment a bit. His brain basically told him that when a person is sick and the area around them is crappy they can feel worse. So he cleaned up to help me mentally feel better and then my body would have a nicer time to physically feel better. This theory I think has a lot truth to it so I don't argue that at all. The only problem is I guess his man brain also told him to not communicate this nice gesture to me, because men don't normally communicate "small things". I don't know, that's the only way my brain made any sense of it.

So as I wake up and see all this, despite my exhaustion, my ocpd self was going just a bit insane.

This past week was not without craziness. Before I got sick I spilt a small amount of beer on my laptop. I of course took all the actions to shut it off and get it upside down, etc, but I worried if any that I didn't immediately wipe up got under the keys. So a friend and my first youngest brother offered to walk me though the process of cleaning it, through a video chat. I joked with Hubby about how I should ground myself to keep any static from getting to my computer. He suggested since all my clothes had polyester that I should just go naked with some rubber snow boots on. I decided my friend and little brother wouldn't appreciate Hubby's humor and just wore light clothing and boots.

My brother came online first so I started basic steps with him only to find I couldn't do anything after removing the back because Apple has this bullshit specialty 5-point screw that they designed and patented to "keep customers from messing around with the internals". Bull shit. Apple just wants to control their product and they know they can make money off their customers by keeping them from doing the most basic of tasks like changing a battery! Seriously? I thought for a moment that maybe they just thought their customers were so stupid that they wouldn't even let them change or remove the battery, but no. It's really that Apple just wants everyone to believe that their machines run off of magic and only they can fix it for you.....for a price of course.

I looooove Apple's software. It's the best I've ever had, but their hardware sucks balls. It's not the best out there and if any computer equipment ran off of magic it certainly wouldn't be any of Apple's stuff. While I love my laptop it also can't to a lot of things I want it to, like game for example. I can't really do any gaming with Apple machines because not only are they not powerful enough but many games are only designed for the PC. On top of that I really don't like supporting a company that monopolizes their product so much that they won't even let their customers do the simplest of computer maintenance on their own, to keep their machines happy. I should be allowed to change out my ram if I want. A monkey can do that. But no, Apple has to because of this dumb ass screw.

So long story short I've been thinking of building my own machine. It would definitely give me the control I want with my computer and be more powerful as well as upgradable. Plus, it would help me learn more about computers.
I'm not totally dead set on it yet as it would likely require me selling my laptop to get the money, if I wanted it sooner rather than later. I'm really spoiled on the portability of laptops. Like right now, I'm sick but I can at least keep my brain from utter bordum by having my computer here in bed. I have to think about it more, but my brother helped show me what kinds of things I could get to build a nice one for a cheap price.

Anyways. I unfortunately feel like a drained battery. I just got back a bit of energy from eating a bit but before that I could have been a zombie and no one would have noticed the difference.....minus the eating of brains and stuff. I'm going to quit now while I still have enough energy to maybe watch a movie.

Trying hard...baby steps

Ack! I swear I didn't forget.  Ok well... Saturday came and I woke up going "blog post day!" and then I forgot. It's hard combating ADHD, but I am working on it. I also didn't post last week since my previous post was on a Tuesday and I thought maybe that was too soon.
To be honest though, not much has happened. Since school started only just this week it's been pretty quiet. Though I am very excited for this semester because the one class I have is supposedly with one of the best Psychology instructors at my college. Score! Here's to hoping right? Anyone at this point would be better than the witch I had last semester. Lol!
I have also discovered, since living here in Wisconsin, that my ideas of running in every type of weather might have been a bit misguided. I don't really think that when I said I would run in snow that I realized what that really meant for this part of the world. I shall demonstrate below....

As you can see the top doodle was my brain convincing me it would be lovely and wonderful. The bottom doodle is really what it is and pretty much impossible. :/  So for now I've resorted to running in circles in my little room of the apartment. Sigh. I don't want to pay for any gym and Hubby's mother hasn't cleared off her treadmill yet, though that would still be hard since she lives 30min away. The other option I have chosen is to go for longer walks with Hubby. So far it's been ok, but for once I kind of wish the snow would stop...as much as I love it.

If not now, then when?

So yeah. I know. It's been months. Sigh.

A lot happened, and a lot didn't happen. I'm a bit more convinced that my ADHD extends far beyond just my studies. :/  Every time I even remembered to blog I would forget in favor of something else.

Rather than have a huge post explaining all that happened I'll just post it if I remember in the future. For now here are some doodles from the end of the semester. :)

The one of me with an eye patch is a fun story. Basically I'd rubbed my eye... I guess I was scratching it or something. Then within 10min it started stinging. The stinging persisted through the day and my eye was constantly watering and hurt. So I thought it was my contacts and removed them. It didn't stop and then I had to realize that I'd scratched my cornea on accident. So for the next 2 days I had an eye patch to keep it shut and protect it while it healed. Was pretty funny looking. Happy to say it healed just fine. :)

The one above is the quickest summary I can give for the convention I went to with Hubby and a good friend, Justin. It was Blizzcon, the con for the company that makes Wow among many other good games. We had a total blast and I was happy to finally get to meet my friend Justin in person. We all enjoyed ourselves, but the real fun story was that I must have had the goddess of luck next to me because I practically made out like a bandit! XD  Pretty much everything I entered I won something, including a very nice 3D monitor for a computer......which was a total pain to get back home. Eventually Justin was shadowing me everywhere hoping my luck would rub off onto him. :P

Besides all that I've decided I'm not completely happy with what I'm doing in life. Well, I'll elaborate. I am happy but not as happy as I could be. So I've decided to make some changes and work really hard to make those changes a permanent thing in my life. No, this is not a New Year's resolution...though yes, the timing is ironic. It was just me finally looking in the mirror like I usually do and thinking "Oh I'll get to that..." and I guess I'm just tired of saying that. So instead I said "Ok, if not now, then when?"  It extends to a lot in my life right now. Yes, I am going back to school and trying to better myself, and I do have a job, and I get to see my friends in Wow and enjoy playing in my free time....but it's really not enough. I'd like to do all those and more. I keep telling myself I'll get back into piano and Japanese, and I'll try to eat better and yada yada. But then I get distracted by something else or forget...and just tell myself "later".  Well, like I said, I'm tired of it and decided I'm going to have all the things I want in my life and I'm not going to keep saying later. So I wrote a nice poem to go on my bed and did a few doodles for it, for the blog. :)

Even if you're standing alone...

So I know I said I would make this a weekly thing, but I figure what the hell, I'll just post if I feel like it and then definitely post on Sat or Sun to recap anything I missed.

The reason I'm posting today though it mainly to vent about my psychology teacher. She's gone just a bit too far and now I'm pissed. See, I'd finally gotten a chance to talk to her boss last week, about her constant tardiness, letting us out too early, being unreasonable, etc. Last week really tipped the scales because she didn't teach us at all. We went to class both Mon and Wed and she held us for 5min before letting us out. No, it wasn't for class reasons. Mon she handed back tests and then let us go and Wed it was because she had the chance to meet someone important and was going to do that.

Anyways, today she did show up on time. We waited a few minutes for any stragglers before starting. She opened up with saying we were going to make some changes to the syllabus. She then backtracked and said "I spoke with my supervisor and apparently there were some students in this class who complained about me showing up late and letting you out early. For starters as long as I'm within 15 minutes then it's not considered late, and you will always get out early because I teach back-to-back classes and need to be able to get to my other class, which is in another building."

Personally, if my college's official files say this class goes until 10:25am then it needs to go until about that time. Letting us out 20-30min early because she's overbooked with classes is not a very good excuse because we still get less education so she can make it to another class on time, even though she'd been late to our class up until now.



She then explained what the changes would be. Up until now we had been taking small quizzes, after each chapter review, to help memorize the material. This helped a lot of students, and she even told us during the first class that she's found this to be helpful so she gives them out. We would normally review 3 chapters, with a quiz after each one, and then take a test on all 3 chapters. But now she said that we would no longer have any quizzes (for the remaining 9 chapters) and that we would just review 3 chapters and take a test. Her exact reasoning was "because they are too hard for me." I am only assuming she meant that in the sense that they maybe take too much time and so she's taking them out to save time and catch up. 



This did upset several students, who were finding the quizzes beneficial to their studies. She went on to also say "I also let you out early so that you can read the book and review the chapters. I thought you all would appreciate the flow, but it's all good. You can thank whoever complained." Yeah, she did just tell everyone that the person to blame was the one who complained about her not doing her job.

Class proceeded shortly after this. At the end of the lecture we ended about 7ish ...maybe 10min early. This isn't a big deal when compared to the other days where class would end 30min early. As she was finishing up, one of the students (who was obviously annoyed about the loss of quizzes) said very sarcastically, "Oh my god, don't end early!" My teacher responded to this with, "Oh yeah, whoever complained about that, right? Haha!" She then re-explained everything she said in the beginning, because some students showed up late, again reiterating that the person who complained about the lack of education is the one to blame for the class getting harder, due to the lack of future quizzes.



After class I stuck around, mainly because I didn't feel like moving much after that. Three girls, one of them being the girl who made the sarcastic remark earlier, were speaking together in the row in front of me. I was able to hear one of them was really upset about the lack of quizzes and is now debating dropping the class because the quizzes were what was helping her memorize the material. The second girl echoed those concerns and then they said a few things about how the person who complained just ruined the whole class for them. The third girl said, "It was probably some bitch who was just pissed off." I think that girl was one of the ones who knew I was the one that complained.



There is at least 1/4 of the class that know I voiced my opinion about the lack of education in the class. I know this because I spoke with them when they seemed upset about it as well. I told them, "Look, if this really bothers you then do what I did. Go downstairs to the Associate Dean's office and complain. Use your voice if you feel you're not getting your money's worth." I personally don't know if anyone took my advice. Even if they did, it still doesn't change the fact that our instructor singled out the "ones" who complained about how she wasn't doing a good job and then told the entire class, 3 times, that those students were to blame for the lack of future quizzes.

So because I voiced my concerns for wanting a more quality education the entire class gets punished, and I (and whoever else possibly complained) got singled out as being the ones at fault. This pretty much takes everyone who is upset and removes their anger from the teacher and puts it on the student who voiced their opinions and concerns. Ironically that's a very effective psychological method. Too bad it's incredibly unprofessional though.

I was kind of in shock afterward. I really expected her to handle the situation like an adult, after her boss told her she'd received complaints about the job she was doing. After composing myself I decided to skip seeing the Associate Dean (her boss) and went straight to the Dean of Student Affairs. I'd been keeping him in the loop through BCC emails, since my first complaint.

After telling him what happened he seemed calm but kind of angry. He said that what she did was retaliation and that the college has zero tolerance for it. He then asked when my next class with her was. I told him Wed and he said that he would meet with her boss today and then one of them would contact me before Wed.

I'm still really pissed at her complete lack of professional behavior. I mean really? You don't do your job so in return you punish everyone and then get them to be angry at the person who brought your lack of teaching to your boss' attention? Sorry but I'm not putting up with this shit. If she won't do her job then I'm going to complain, even if the other students won't stand up with me. I came for a goddamn education and if they want it to be cushy or don't want to make waves when they aren't getting taught right then they shouldn't be in school.

Chances are I'll be transferred out before my next class. At least for my own sanity, because I sure as hell don't want to learn from her anymore...not that I was learning from her in the first place. And I don't particularly want to be surrounded by classmates who hate me. But at this point I'd be prepared if I had to attend Wed's class, before this is resolved, and I don't plan on being quiet. She probably did that to try and intimidate and silence anyone who complained. Well...here's me being silent:

I can take anything you can dish out.