Heart 1 Brain 0

Husky asked me out this weekend.

I said yes.

 

Obviously, more was said than that, but that was pretty much the most important part. Lol.

I should back up and explain what I had to mentally go through, the week before, because I had this feeling he would ask since we'd been getting along so well....though my ego would like to think it was my super awesome, cute outfit choice...

After I got back from Husky's city, last week, I attended class as usual, practiced rugby, worked in the lab, did homework, and did my cleaning job. It was a usual week. Meanwhile my brain and my heart were in constant disagreement about what to do with my current situation.

I was still feeling scared about the prospect of a relationship and I wasn't sure if that was a normal feeling to have, after everything I've been through, or if it was something trying to tell me I still wasn't ready yet. I enlisted the help of Stan and he told me he didn't think the world was so black and white, and that if I liked him I should go for it. I still wasn't fully sure though. My heart knew he was good, and already superior to my last few relationships, but my brain could only remember all the shit I went through with those last few relationships. I'm still healing from some of it. :/ Some men can be complete jerks and it was a hard lesson for me to learn.
I'm not saying Husky is utterly amazing with no faults whatsoever. But based on my more recent past relationships he already matches up with me far better than any of them ever did. This gave Heart the firepower it needed against Brain, to get it to stop looking at the situation with blinders on.

So since Heart won this round I went with its choice. Am I still super nervous? Hell yes. But Stan also pointed out that what happened before shouldn't have any influence on someone new. I think it's just the idea of relationships that scare me because they unfortunately only remind me of terrible feelings of hurt now. I'm happier now and certainly more confident in myself and what I can do by myself, but I imagine a good relationship with someone who knows how to actually treat me properly will show Brain that not all guys are jerks who don't care how much they can hurt me. I tried to relax about the matter by listening to lots of music.

I was eventually coming to terms with all of this the day before heading back to see Husky. At the last minute I found out I wasn't able to travel with my team to Indiana for the away game. I haven't received transcripts from my old college and high school yet to prove I wasn't on a previous rugby team, so until they arrive I can't play. As a result playable players got priority on car seats. I was disappointed but it meant I could leave a day early a day early and spend more time with Husky. Turned out to be a good thing. Husky asked me to date him Friday night and here's how the rest of my weekend went...

We went to a geek themed burlesque show, where pretty girls in Star Trek, Dr. Who, and other geeky awesomeness stripped and danced a la burlesque style.

We went for a 4mi run the next morning.

And then rested for an hour before heading out again...

He then showed me around the area and all the cool businesses near him, where there were tons of awesome niche shops for me to get artsy ideas.

We then came home and enjoyed the spoils of our cheese shopping while watching anime.

In the evening he took me to see Batman, which is always a great way to gain points.

Sunday was spent climbing all day again. 

Poor guy isn't used to Wisconsin cold weather yet. So I helped out a bit.

After we returned that evening we had dinner, more cheese and of course more cartoons.

As you can see, I think Heart made a good call this time.